Two years ago today I became a Mother. It might not have been in the most traditional way...but I WAS a Mother! A lot in my life has changed since then, Husband going back to school, a new job for me, moving to a new home, meeting new friends, and of course the birth of my Rainbow! As I look back over the last 2 years I am filled with emotions. Like any new mother I feel proud, great love, and awe at how tiny yet PERFECT he was! Yet for me becoming a Mother also brought with it a broken heart.
It happened all the same for me as any other Mother... The hours of labor, going into the hospital when it was time, my waters breaking, then my little boy coming it the world. Cutting his cord, placenta, my milk coming in... Yet because it was 20 weeks to soon, and he entered this world without a cry, I am seen by most as a Mother of one boy....not a Mother of 2. There is sadness in his memory...the "what ifs", and the wonder of what he would have been like. But most of all there is JoY! The immense love I have of being his mom, and the happy times I remember...those first little kicks, hearing his hear beat, watching him grow. So this is for you Evin Gabriel, You will always have a very special place in my heart, for you made my biggest dreams come true! It may not have been how we planed it to be, or understood by most of our world, but you made me a MOTHER! Happy 2nd birthday little man,
From your very proud Mother.
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